Lord,
My haunting ever-presence
Lord I can't find you in my hidden heart

I come to you with faith and distraction

I have these same flip-flops and my wavy hair
But I am tired of my outside

Do I impress you with my beauty Lord?
Can I ever lie to you, Lord?

I have your presence Lord
when I smile, when I walk, when I glance in a reflection

I have this desk Lord
and a thousand doubts as I work aroundm on top under and inside of it

Tonight I am angry and let down
Tonight, I can't hide Lord
and I feel lost and distracted

All this activity and no movement

I want this changed and over
and to never wander back home the same way again

I am unsure now,
Now that you show me my darkness and the chaos.


(Thank you Molly for the inspiration)

jimmy! 

we meet jimmy

me, dan and josh met the drummer from jimmy eat world this past tuesday. josh and i were giddy little kids running around backstage at their concert, eating free food, saying hi to people and being just general dorks. dan sat cooly on the special sectioned off bleachers, looking very much the rock star. we met cool bass players from bands and nice girls who helped coordinate programs for the university where the concert was. we even saw signs to jimmy's dressing room! signs.

the show was great, me and josh in the pit, all sweaty and gross, people crowd surfing and being sort of violent in a fun way (if that is possible). afterwards, we sat with dan in the bleacers and zach, the drummer, came to find us. Well not us so much as dan. he recognized dan's hair first. we talked for about 10 minutes and he had to go. he was so nice, so normal. very very cool guy, humble and just so normal! it was disarming and comforting all at once.


here is a picture of me and josh and zach. i am doing my best pirate face, (one eyed raptor, argh!) and josh is very happy because zach has a joke demo in hand.

you know it

this is the place!!!